to commemorate my 30th

Today I am 30...

Today I am 30

Finally.

Finally.

30 is my ticket.

30 is what I've been waiting for.
30 is a cloak of confidence

I get to wear for the rest of my life...

30 is the pair of 3-D glasses

that allows me to see

beyond the omnipresent

apathy of those who

surround me.

It's freedom.

It's legitimacy....

I'm not married.

I don't have a baby.

I hear no ticking clock.

I've been digital since 1984.

All those things that I was supposed

to accomplish by the time I was 30

are not accomplished.

So I no longer have to worry

about the agenda someone else handed to me.

I'm no longer on any agenda.

Today I am 30

and the only responsibility I have

is myself.

My sanity.

My integrity.

My health.

My peace of mind.

My acute and unerring perceptions.

An enormous responsibility to be sure,

but mine and mine alone.

I am a fully responsible adult.

Because today I am 30.

Not a bad place to be actually.

After all, how many people can say:

Today I am 30 and

today I am free.

Adapted from Anita Liberty's 'How to Heal the Hurt by Hating'.

shock horror!!!!!

Shit!!! I had the most horrible dream, I was 30!

Hang on a minute, I am 30!!!, Oh god! How did this happen????, OK, no need to panic, I can still feel my legs, my arms are OK, and my head - oh my head! I can definitely feel it... Shit I had too much to drink again...

Fuck! I am really 30!!!!!!!! - oh well, I might as well enjoy the ride, why not?

hmmmmmmmmmmmmm, yes, the memories flood back, I had my birthday party and drank lost and lots and lots and lots of champagne (champagnoise more like it...), hence the headache, the vague recollections of night of debauchery except I ended up alone in my bed - as usual says my head - fuck! I wish I had had great sex to mark my entrance into the 4th decade of my life....
Dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, v dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty, dirty thirty,

Let us hope they really are as dirty as they say......


oh my, I look fabulous!