Thursday, 26 July 2007

time goes so fast

I am feeling so unattractive today, I feel fat, sad, jaded and so over everything...

Need a new job, want more money, want a loving partner, want to have a puppy dog. I'm bored out of my brain...................................................................................
Oh and silly me decided to eat Chinese for dinner, now I feel so bloated and sluggish, hormones suck big time!!!! Had a date that was cancelled without a good reason, men suck!
Where do you go to find love???? - I received a post card from my local uniting church with that question, if they don't know where to go, what hope do I have to find love then??

I just thought the post card was a funny thing to publish here, I don't care where to go, all I want is to be happy. I'm about to go, and I'm not sure if I will continue to post here during my trip, only time will tell.......

Tuesday, 24 July 2007

be careful of what you wish for...


this is a list I wrote not too long ago asking the universe for the things I want, some of them came true and fell apart, some I'm still waiting for to happen and some I suppose will never come to be...


  • I want lots of healthy, happy charisma in my relationships

  • I want to easily find myself releasing old 'baggage' from my childhood and all previous relationships

  • I want the habit of constantly creating stress and crisis in my life totally lifted from me

  • I want to find myself expressing my intensity in ways that are not threatening to others

  • I want to easily find myself noticing the intensity of others without taking it personally

  • I want the fear of commitment lifted from me

  • I want to recognize, attract, and experience a happy soul-mate relationship

  • I want the fear of abandonment totally lifted from me

  • I want to easily find myself consciously suspending judgement of self and others

  • I want to easily find myself appreciating the beauty of nature and the beauty of life

  • I want to experience the freedom of enjoyment of living my life

  • I want to easily find myself obeying my conscience, leading to peace of mind

  • I want the habit of being blunt easily lifted from me

  • I want the tendency to excess and overloading things totally lifted from me

Some are in the way of happening, so here's hoping that one day most of my list - if not all - will be fulfilled.



Monday, 23 July 2007

beautiful things