Having a tantrum because you're not getting what you want and you are past 40 is simply sad and pathetic.
So you're angry and had your feels hurt by not being able to control and manipulate others, well, get fucking over it.
Be that most excellent person you claim to be and understand that if someone chose not to tell you something it might be because they knew you are a double faced person unworthy of their confidence.
Learn to own up to the fact that others can see you are only interested in your personal gain.
Kicking someone when they're down is a lowly act, trying to use other's vulnerability to bring them down and quite possibly affect their health is despicable, all that hate you have inside will eat you – but that's exactly what you deserve.
No, you will never break my spirit and no matter how hard you try, you will never take my wonderful times and memories, I am far stronger than you can possibly imagine and I am calm and assured in the knowledge that I know the truth and all your attempts at hurting me will fail.
Enjoy your bitterness.
I will enjoy my life.