Monday, 17 September 2007

the good, the bad & the ugly

good: Monday 17th is nearly over
bad: 8 months ago
ugly: it still hurts
good: I stood up for myself against bigB trying to put his foot on my neck
bad: I hate my job
ugly: my jobs makes me feel physically ill, like I am going to throw up as soon as get there
good: I am looking for a new job
bad: no luck with the job hunting so far
ugly: the salaries offered are even less than what I am making now, which is really not enough..
good: decided I want to leave this city as soon as possible
bad: don't know when that will happen
ugly: city living
good: I am stronger now
bad: I'm too proud to admit my weaknesses
ugly: I have the bad habit of self-sabotage
good: my friends are great
bad: sometimes "I'm too busy" to let them know how much I love them
ugly: I can be really slack to reply to emails
good: I enjoy my own company
bad: I feel lonely quite often
ugly: I tend to isolate myself - not good when you're already feeling lonely...
good: I'm getting better
bad: major depressive disorder
ugly: suicidal thoughts
good: cognitive-behavioural therapy
bad: reality can be painful
ugly: looking at oneself hitting rock bottom
good: being me
bad: not liking being me
ugly: being angry at myself
good: loving me, LOVE IS GREAT!!
bad: there is really nothing bad about loving and love, even though it can be painful.
ugly: love is irrational and indomitable

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Hang in there! I am sure you have some close friends who love and support you. Keep reminding yourself that things will get better, because you know they will, especially if you have already hit rock bottom!