Isn't it funny???

My psychiatrist told me today that nobody will love me if I am so depressed, what a fucked up thing to say I reckon!

Thank you Dr. I-have -no -idea-what-you're-going-through. You have been a great help.

I know in my heart that I will find someone to love me sad or happy or just plain blah... It is just a matter of time, I will get better, I will be happy, and I will be loved.

Loss, grief, berievement, all those are just chapters in one's life, and life is dymanic and impermanent, so why should it remain constant agony for me? It won't, it will change, and I will come on top. Is too late now to give up.

P.S. Annonymus, thank you for your comment, always appreciate the support.

Rie

Good bye beautiful girl, I will miss you dearly little sister...

Please watch over me from heaven.

....just because I like it

Let's talk it over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

Your were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, suppossed to be
But we lost it
All of our memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

Your were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, suppossed to be
But we lost it
All of our memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you care
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, suppossed to be
But we lost it
All of our memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending

Avril Lavigne

and now what?

Back at work again.

There is this hole in the middle of my chest, it has always been there, it makes me feel like everyone can see through me, I am transparent at the best of times. I feel as if I am invisible, people can see through me.
I look at people on the street, people at work, I stare at them and they never look back at me, rarely get eye contact with others, not because I avoid it but because most people will look away when you try to look them in the eye, this is so sad. I am in desperate need for human contact, I feel so lonely. I need a hug, I want to feel wanted, I want to be loved.

I want this pain to end

news

What do you get when you cross a platypus and an orangutan?????? I reckon that's why it could never work, I am a platypus, therefore I must find another one of my own kind to go forth and reproduce; only problem is - i really want the orangutan.


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fly away

Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.

Is time to change and leave the sadness and the loneliness behind and I will do what it takes.I don't want to go back to ward 26.

I have decided to start dating again, just like the saying goes: you have to get back on the horse... Too soon? I don't think so, I don't really care. I don't want to be alone and the only way for me to forget him and get back on track and reclaim my heart is by looking to new horizons. Who knows? maybe I will find a great man and if not then at least I will have lots of fun in my search for somebody to love me back.

No more puffy eyes, enough tears, enough suffering, enough sleepless nights, bring on the happiness and the joy. I have all going for me.