today

I'm out on parole again after being in the loonie bin for 20 days, it is amazing how fast time goes.
I don't really know how I'm feeling, when I wakw up inthe morning I feel like I can't possibly face the day, then it gets less bad but by the evening I'm so anxious and scared about god knows what! I'm not sure the meds are working I'm just not feeling right but I don't want to go back into hospital so I'll have to ride it...
I'm seeing the vet tomorrow, perhaps she can help me out with the anxiety with yet another pill. I'm tired of the meds but I can't stop taking them, that would be too destructive in the long run.